Weigh In 2

So, today was weigh in day at the dietitian's office. As usual, I got there early and ready to step on the scale. Little did I know that I was in for a shock when she told me how much I had lost this week.

Last week's weight : 252.1 lbs

This week's weight: 251.5 lbs

Yep, I lost 0.6 lbs. Even the dietitian said this was so unlike me, since she was used to seeing me lose not less than 2 lbs since we started this journey. Truth is, I didn't go off plan. I ate like I was supposed to. Measured all my portions and stayed away from soda and pastries. 

However, to be on the safe side, I've been asked to keep a journal for the week, so we can both review during my next weigh in. Will start tomorrow, as today was my brother's wedding day and I didn't stay on plan.  Now, before you go raising eyebrows, I tried to eat healthy with what was available. I had a salad with fried fish and some pepper sauce. Then I had five gizzards and a bottle of Alvaro (yes it is a soda, and I do not feel guilty since I won't be taking any soon).

Got home and then took some popcorn and a Diet Coke for dinner. I just didn't feel like eating real food but was peckish. Logged everything on MFP but suspect I overestimated just to be safe.

Anyways, will resume tomorrow and add some more exercise to ensure a better loss at the next weigh in. I'm taking things one day at a time and keeping in mind that it is a lifestyle, and there will be days where life will make it impossible to follow plans to the letter. 

Today, I learnt that staying away from the carbs was a good option. Next time I may stay away from soda :).

Ashamed.

I've been feeling really low recently. Stepped on the scale and realized that I was at my heaviest weight since 2009. A whopping 118kg! 

I'm not going to tell you that I didn't know how I missed the numbers slowly creeping up. For some reason, I was sure I would lose the weight amidst all the stress and late night eating.

This evening I saw the look of sadness in my father's eyes as he talked about my weight. See, I promised him that I would lose a significant amount of weight by the end of the year but have barely lost a kilogram.

Frankly, I'm disgusted at myself right now. 80% of my clothes don't fit and I've had enough of this embarrassing situation.

My new regime begins tomorrow. I have to make time for my health and lose these excess pounds.

Wish me luck and pray with and for me. I need all the help God can offer me.

I Feel Like A Failure.

I have not been posting as I should, and I have not been exercising as much either. My eating patterns are so poor that you would be disappointed in me If I gave details. The last few months have been stressful in many aspects. Unfortunately, my exercise and diet regime suffered as a result. It's a wonder that I haven't gained so much weight. 

Thankfully, I am stopping myself RIGHT NOW, before things go way out of hand. Under normal circumstances I would immediately post my weight but since I want to start a new week with measurements, I will post my details on Sunday. My plan is to go on a detox for three days to reboot my system. So much junk has been going down these fast few months and my system needs a thorough cleanse.

To those that I've disappointed, I'm so sorry. Not only do I want to lose weight, I want to be a motivator to you; my friends. I promise to try harder to stay on track.

Here's to better days. Bless you all.

Cheers.

Seeing Goals to the End....

This year my weight loss efforts were great in the beginning. I was losing weight consistently on a weekly basis and then, somewhere in April I did something wrong. I messed up my rhythm. It was so bad that even with my exercise and diet my weight loss became so inconsistent. I would lose and then gain and then lose the same weight over and over again. 

2013 has to be different. I started jogging again this December but had to pause due to a foot injury. My foot healed and then I started again. It helps that I go with my Mom. Today I went alone. Left the house at 4:30am and was back at 5:40am. It's rather unfortunate that I don't have a pedometer or gadget to know the distance I'm covering. Been looking online and I may get a friend to order a Polar FT7 for me.

I believe that knowing the exact amount of calories I burn and the distance I cover may also motivate me to try not to undo all the good that I've done. To be honest, I'm sad that in three years I have not lost a significant amount of weight. I am lighter but still obese. If I don't lose at least 30lbs in 2013 I may just decide to abandon blogging. Why waste people's time if I can't even motivate them? I hate disappointing people who have faith in me. Hopefully that will put me in check.

I will see my goals to the end. I have to.

Disappointed...

Wow! I haven't posted in over a week. That's really bad eh? Things at work have been crazy and I get so tired that all I do when I get home is drop and fall asleep. Then I tripped when getting off a bus and hurt my knee so exercising was an on and off affair.

So, you can imagine my disappointment when I weighed in at 95.3kg this morning. Yes, I gained 0.8kg :-(. At least I'm grateful that I didn't gain more than a kilo. That would have been too much for me to handle. I'm also disappointed because I realise that I can't reach my goal of getting to Onederland by the end of the year.

Guess I'll have to push it to the second week in January 2011. By then I should weigh either 90kg or 89kg.

Anyways enough blathering. Hope you have an interesting christmas and please... watch out for the calorie-laden stuff...