Tired....

Wow! Been a while since I last posted. Sorry guys, the stress from work leaves me too exhausted to type. Thank God I'm sill able to work out in the mornings! Anyways, weighed in this morning at 96.2 kg. Yeah, kinda slow this week but eventually we'll get to 90kg.

Getting Emotional....

Somewhere last year, when I was about 110kg. Someone I truly loved looked at me and said "Enyonam, you'd be a stunner if only you would lose a few pounds." Obviously I was hurt. What did he mean by that? Especially since he had told me that he really loved me no matter what. I smiled and said I was working on it even though deep down I was hurt. Then I found out he was trying to woo a much slimmer girl. The betrayal nearly killed me.

But now, I realise that was my wake up call. As I was crying, I looked at myself in the mirror and, hated what I saw. That was when I decided I was going to lose the extra weight. What did I do? Started jumping rope twice everyday and watching every single thing that entered my mouth. the result; I lost 11kg. Then the next guy I fell in love with made me feel fat so I worked harder but because I was doing it to please him, the weight just refused to come off. Then we broke up and then I stopped exercising and went back to late night eating. I ended up gaining 3.8kg and moving to 102.8kg.

So one night as I was in blogsville reading several weight loss stories, one caught my eye. The lady said she started to lose weight the moment she learnt to love herself for who she was and gained confidence in herself. This gave her the strength to wake up at 4am every morning to walk around her house. She lost 80 pounds just by doing that and eating right. That just triggered my vim. I've learnt to love myself and I'm losing the weight 1kg at a time.

I want to thank you guys for reading my blog and leaving your comments as I share my triumphs and failures with you. It's talking to you that keeps me sane and on track.

Love you all.......

96.9, I'm A Survivor.

As I was burning serious calories on the treadmill at 4am this morning and listening to music on my Ipod, Destiny's Child's Survivor started playing. I actually paid attention to the lyrics and smiled as I raised the incline from 6% to 8%. See, it reminded me of all those who felt I couldn't lose weight even if I wanted to. It reminded me of the guy who said "Enyonam, don't kill yourself. You are beautiful just the way you are" and yet left me for a skinnier girl. It reminded me of the number of times that people have said mean things to me about my weight and how I was "losing my figure because of food". (Sigh).

I actually smiled because the lyrics were on point. In spite of all those mean words of discouragement, I'm here.I'm doing things my way and it's working. Infact, I couldn't help but sing along with my slight panting..

I'm a survivor

I'm not gonna give up

I'm not gonna stop

I'm gonna work harder

I'm a survivor

I'm gonna make it

I will survive and

Keep on surviving.

After all of the sadness I've felt, losing weight is the best thing that has ever has happened to me and even if it takes me a year, 2 years or more, I'm definitely not going to stop exercising and eating right!

Oh! and I weighed in at 96.9kg this morning, meaning I've lost 5.9kg/13pounds since I started this journey in October. I will keep surviving! :-)

97.8, Crunches Make Me Nauseous!

I'm so tired. Thank God I'm not doing any serious exercises today. The walking that I'm going to be doing whilst shopping and cooking is enough exercise on my "off" day.

So, I've been trying to balance my workout with the usual dumbell, resistance bands etc . plus cardio workout but, there is one problem. I can't do crunches without feeling like I'm gonna throw up. The leg raises are fine, the side bends are fine but the crunches..... ArggggHHH! It can be frustrating. Any ideas on how to stop this? I need you guys....

Weighed in at 97.8kg this morning. Good. I'm just gonna take it easy and hope I don't eat the wrong things today since Saturdays are like the best days for the food devils to strike.

98.1, I've Lost 10 Pounds!!

So today is a very memorable day for me. Wanna know why?  I've lost 10 pounds! Yay!

Now I know it's not much when compared to how much more weight I have to lose to get to my goal weight but, like my Dad always says: you never get to the finish line if you don't partake in the race. I'm gonna continue working hard and persevering. I will get there even if it kills me!

I must confess that I feel good now that I'm losing the weight. The confidence is high and I must confess, I can't wait to see the look on the faces of those who didn't believe I could do this when they see me next year.

:-) Cheers and y'all have a lovely day!